Brigitte never spoke kindly of her father, according to the shelter manager. He said she punished herself over the years, by living a destructive lifestyle and bottling the hate. He said Brigitte refused counseling, claiming she was to angry and ashamed to talk to a stranger, so the manager listened when Brigitte needed her too. He believed her years of abuse caused her to “snap.”
Slowly, the front she had created started coming apart. She moved to an apartment in Rockaway Park in 2006-only two blocks from the beach she wrote about on Myspace. “Sweet beach parties, make’n S’mores, bonfires, get’n drunk and watch’n the sunrise,” she wrote. “It does not get any better than that”, she said. However, she found she could not hold a relationship, and had to be drunk when around others.